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I Just can't Wait

I cannot wait to move into our new house. But I am so worried that this house is not going to sell in time that it's driving me crazy. I've even PRAYED that it does. I can't believe I had a fight with the damn builders, got 57k taken off the price of the house and we might not get it if we don't sell this one. I am so so damn worried. I just love that house. I was looking at pics of it today and pics of the pool (hence the fight with them and why we got the money off) and I just kept thinking I cannot wait for this. It's like the house I have wanted for years. The design is awesome, the spacing is great and the layout is flawless (cept for that darn kitchen cupboard and the linen closet) the only 2 things I don't like in the house.

I started looking at other houses last week just in case. I don't want to have to go through the whole "buying a new house again" but I still don't want to have to buy an older home then have most of it gutted and remodeled before we move it it. That would be a real *itch. We will see what happens, hopefully good things. Hopefully.

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Most of these look like that have a lot of potential if not really good.

OH, and looking through this blog entry you may see some crazy stuff... that's BLOG not me. Ok, I have some questions for folks out there; How long do you stay in a relationship. work or don't work. I just wonder. My partner/lover/bf/other half/husband/ as it goes on.... and I have been together almost 9 years in years that might be a long time but to me in long term years..... it aint much. I have gay friends that have been together over 20 years and no, it's not like one, two or three of them. It's several! I have spoken to all of them in regards as to what keeps them together and it is always a varied response from each couple.

I wish SEX was a BIG reason why, cause I could just end this now, but true deep down feelings of.... I don't know what you call it, love affection, response determination, mutual influx... what ever it is, it's there. That thing that says, "Every Day, I hope I See You, Talk To You, Know You A Bit More". Then there is that part that says. "why the HELL do you come here, get out of my house, BITCH you drive me CRAZY!" I can weigh the feelings all I want and KNOW, even after all this time that the "GOOD" feelings always win. Not because I want them to, but because they are predominant, they help me see through the murk of life. But, how long do you want to "see"? I'd prefer to be blind myself, I'm so sick of fighting and arguing and struggling. But then again, I know, KNOW, it's what life is about. REAL life, the nitty gritty stuff that keeps everyone coming back for more. More love, more sex, more trust, more satisfaction, more fights, more arguments, more betrayal, more love, more confusion more of more.

What, what is it. I bet people all over through time ask that. "What THE HELL!" HOW, WHY, WHAT, WHEN. Do yo know those are the questions a GOOD interviewer should start with. If not even with the subject but with ones self. ASK THE BIG QUESTIONS.

Whats Going On Out There

Well we just signed up with a new realtor and it seems like this might work out better. We have to do some painting and a whole hell of a lot of packing up of extra stuff but it will be worth it if this thing sells. The work isn't so bad, I replaced the dinning room light today and packed about 15 so far, plus i've thrown away a TON of crap (this is the third round of that in the past 5 months). Tomorrow I just need to re-paint the office and get all the boxes out of the house. We'll see what happens, if it doesn't sell oh well.

late,

G....

P.S. Oh, and thats a pic of the new house. My Favorite area.

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A Farwell To Mojo

We finally had to put our older sheltie down yesterday. What a hard day that was, it's not much better today but we are getting by. Our cat as really been showing signs that he knows somethings wrong and the other sheltie Deja-Vu has been totally distant. Well hopefully in a week things will get back to normal. I know it's kinda morbid but I requested the ashes because I just couldn't bare to just have him shoved in with a bunch of other animals.

The family misses you Mojo, you were are and always be a loved family member, never a pet, but a friend.