Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Memorial Weekend

Usually we will not go anywhere during this holiday because it is so busy, but we decided to go camping with some friends and their friends (about 10 lesbians, tough ones too hehehe). We had such a great time. Everyone got along very well, there were two altercations with dogs, but nothing really serious.

It was a cool camp ground, we had a group campsite so it was awesome cause all our tents were fairly close and we had 3 picnic table and two huge fire pits. They had badminton, croquet, horse shoes, cards (man those girls play a lot of cards), we brought Uno Attack and darts and cards.

The weather was unbelievable. it was raining just before we got there and the night before also, so we were able to setup with out any problems. Plus we bought a new screen house which turned out to be awesome (and was only $50 at wal-mart). Now we usually are Target kinda guys, but we had to save some money for bills and other crap we have going on so couldn't spend to much on something like that. But it is so much better than our old screen house and more spacious. Neither of us ate or drank too much, well B and A both got drunk the first night we were there, it was funny. All in all I think a good time was had by everyone and I loved those girls they were so nice. I especially just adore Stacey and Dorothy. They are AWESOME!

Well here is a link to the site if you want to go. it was pretty far for us, but if you are in some place like Goodyear or Glendale like A and D then it's hella FAR. if you live in New Mexico it might not be as far. We were pretty darn close to the NM boarder.


Tuesday, May 17, 2005

New week, New Complaints

It has been over a week since I blogged so here I am. I still needt o work on that short story thing. I need some ideas on what to write about. I like horror but I write it so cheesey and droll. My Non fiction is good but dramatic (like my life, overly dramtized). Oh well i'll figure something out. May i'll write some SMUT.

I didn't get much house work done, I have had no energy the past few months. I can't figure it out. I just want to sleep, but don't even do that well. oo, oooooo I made this great beef tenderloin dish (and it ain't cheap) on saturday i'll give the recipe. also made snickerdoodles and reverse chocolate chip cookies. Made a huge lasagna and peppers and sausage on sunday. It was awesome. Oh and also made Chocolate Brownie Ice cream yesterday. That should fatten everyone in the house up.

Here is the beef recipe, and my spin on it.
1 1/2 pounds large shallots (about 24), halved lengthwise, peeled
3 tablespoons butter
6 cups canned beef broth1 1/2 cups tawny Port1 tablespoon tomato paste
2 3- to 3 1/4-pound beef tenderloins (large ends), trimmed

2 teaspoons dried thyme
2 tsp dried oregano
7 bacon slices, chopped6
1 tablespoons all purpose flour
1 large bunch watercress

changed the tawny port to a dry red wine and only used 4 cups
added 2 cups beef broth
half a cup of water (you can change the wine or broth and omit wter. 3 cups of broth or 5 cups of wine)
4 cloves of chopped garlic
omitted the bacon and the watercress
added 1 tablespoon whorchestershire sauce (did I spell that right)

cook the meat slightly to braise with half the butter, about 2 minutes on each side no more than 3.
Set the meat on a platter and cover. with juices in pan add the rest of the butter and cook shallots, garlic till tender, about 3 - 4 minutes add tyme and oregano, add flour (you should get a pasty looking mix), you may need to add more of the butter or the flour as you are cooking. I cooked this for 6 people so did have to add a bit more of each. Pour red wine into mixture and beef broth let boil about 5 minutes on med hi. add Whorchester sauce Let come to a rolling boil. add your meat and any juices that have collected on the plate. let cook for 2 - 3 minutes.

Have set aside some fresh parsley and topped prepared dish with parsley.
I left the meat in the juices and used a slotted spoon to serve. this way the meat stayed hot/warm throughout the entire meal in the juices.

Monday, May 09, 2005

Getting Back On Track

Well I have let work take over my life again. I guess not as bad as it was before I rarely work from home anymore. Maybe for an hour or so every now and then, I think that is a pretty good start.

I have been trying to get back on the good health path too. Since the last surgery I just have not been myself 100%. Which in it's own way is another thing that isn't so bad. Used to be on my days off of work my workouts were from 2.5 to 3.5 hours. It was brutal and the next day always left me drained. I think 2hours is the most I have worked out so far, I am sort of missing it a bit. Working out was always the thing that kept me from going bonkers, well as you may have guessed.... I'm bonkers.

How do you go from feeling completely secure and happy and resolved in your life to like you have made some really big mistakes that are irreversable, unbreakable and under no ones control, certainly not your own that is for sure. Oh well what to do at this point. I am not suicidal yet, I don't particularly blame anyone, not even myself. I just do not see how I got "here" or where "here" is anymore. I have even lost my love of cooking. I told RCH the other day I was so glad I did not pursue the degree in culinary arts deal. I can hardly bare to even look at food. (The old Days of Anorexia [14-17] and bulemia [24-28] are starting to look good. No one knows about the bulemia, I kept that one pretty damn secret, although I had two friends back then that used to joke about it all the time telling me they thought I was one. If they did really they never said a serious word about it ever. Oh and yeah to those that don't know it, guys get the eating disorders too. It's not easy. Now at this point in my life since the first surgery in 01, I have put on about 20#. Plus I had put on about 12 #'s between 96 and 00. I lost some of that then the second back problem came and I gained a ton back. It's the yo yo game. Well Does not matter anymore. I can't lose more than 10#'s if I tried to my death. Matter O Fact by the time I lose the 10, which I go about usually pretty slow and naturally I start getting to a point where I have no energy then if I try and continue I start getting sick constantly. Gave up on that, forget diets. I'll just be sublimely happy in an unconscious relegated state of unblissful "para" weirdness. If you know what I mean.

Ok, i'm finished going on for now. I think i'm going to go back to writing short stories. I think my first one I'll post each writing and see what people think. ( I usually love horror, but might try something serious, or some non fiction).