Thursday, April 27, 2006

OH, and looking through this blog entry you may see some crazy stuff... that's BLOG not me. Ok, I have some questions for folks out there; How long do you stay in a relationship. work or don't work. I just wonder. My partner/lover/bf/other half/husband/ as it goes on.... and I have been together almost 9 years in years that might be a long time but to me in long term years..... it aint much. I have gay friends that have been together over 20 years and no, it's not like one, two or three of them. It's several! I have spoken to all of them in regards as to what keeps them together and it is always a varied response from each couple.

I wish SEX was a BIG reason why, cause I could just end this now, but true deep down feelings of.... I don't know what you call it, love affection, response determination, mutual influx... what ever it is, it's there. That thing that says, "Every Day, I hope I See You, Talk To You, Know You A Bit More". Then there is that part that says. "why the HELL do you come here, get out of my house, BITCH you drive me CRAZY!" I can weigh the feelings all I want and KNOW, even after all this time that the "GOOD" feelings always win. Not because I want them to, but because they are predominant, they help me see through the murk of life. But, how long do you want to "see"? I'd prefer to be blind myself, I'm so sick of fighting and arguing and struggling. But then again, I know, KNOW, it's what life is about. REAL life, the nitty gritty stuff that keeps everyone coming back for more. More love, more sex, more trust, more satisfaction, more fights, more arguments, more betrayal, more love, more confusion more of more.

What, what is it. I bet people all over through time ask that. "What THE HELL!" HOW, WHY, WHAT, WHEN. Do yo know those are the questions a GOOD interviewer should start with. If not even with the subject but with ones self. ASK THE BIG QUESTIONS.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Whats Going On Out There

Well we just signed up with a new realtor and it seems like this might work out better. We have to do some painting and a whole hell of a lot of packing up of extra stuff but it will be worth it if this thing sells. The work isn't so bad, I replaced the dinning room light today and packed about 15 so far, plus i've thrown away a TON of crap (this is the third round of that in the past 5 months). Tomorrow I just need to re-paint the office and get all the boxes out of the house. We'll see what happens, if it doesn't sell oh well.



P.S. Oh, and thats a pic of the new house. My Favorite area.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

A Farwell To Mojo

We finally had to put our older sheltie down yesterday. What a hard day that was, it's not much better today but we are getting by. Our cat as really been showing signs that he knows somethings wrong and the other sheltie Deja-Vu has been totally distant. Well hopefully in a week things will get back to normal. I know it's kinda morbid but I requested the ashes because I just couldn't bare to just have him shoved in with a bunch of other animals.

The family misses you Mojo, you were are and always be a loved family member, never a pet, but a friend.

Monday, April 10, 2006

My New Role

Well On my other BLOG and I won't say where it is or how much I don't like it. I do a Hot Guy Of The Day. So I think I'll Do That Here. And W'ell See How That GOES.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Well here I go again

well it's like here today gone tomorrow. I keep saying i'm going to start catching up. but with working (for 3 weeks) and looking for a new job. Now both of my puppies are sick and one we are going to have to put down. He is such a sweet boy and I don't want to do it because he is so full of life but we don't have a choice. he lost a hind leg and now he is about to lose a front. of course opposite ends. This really sucks. but we've been going through this for a month now and I am feeling stronger about this. Ever had to put a pet down? What's it like? I have never done it before not even with childhood pets. My BF is mad. I want the ashes afterwards, he thinks it's morbid, I think I don't want to let my puppy go yet.