OH, and looking through this blog entry you may see some crazy stuff... that's BLOG not me. Ok, I have some questions for folks out there; How long do you stay in a relationship. work or don't work. I just wonder. My partner/lover/bf/other half/husband/ as it goes on.... and I have been together almost 9 years in years that might be a long time but to me in long term years..... it aint much. I have gay friends that have been together over 20 years and no, it's not like one, two or three of them. It's several! I have spoken to all of them in regards as to what keeps them together and it is always a varied response from each couple.

I wish SEX was a BIG reason why, cause I could just end this now, but true deep down feelings of.... I don't know what you call it, love affection, response determination, mutual influx... what ever it is, it's there. That thing that says, "Every Day, I hope I See You, Talk To You, Know You A Bit More". Then there is that part that says. "why the HELL do you come here, get out of my house, BITCH you drive me CRAZY!" I can weigh the feelings all I want and KNOW, even after all this time that the "GOOD" feelings always win. Not because I want them to, but because they are predominant, they help me see through the murk of life. But, how long do you want to "see"? I'd prefer to be blind myself, I'm so sick of fighting and arguing and struggling. But then again, I know, KNOW, it's what life is about. REAL life, the nitty gritty stuff that keeps everyone coming back for more. More love, more sex, more trust, more satisfaction, more fights, more arguments, more betrayal, more love, more confusion more of more.

What, what is it. I bet people all over through time ask that. "What THE HELL!" HOW, WHY, WHAT, WHEN. Do yo know those are the questions a GOOD interviewer should start with. If not even with the subject but with ones self. ASK THE BIG QUESTIONS.