Still Annoyed at Everything

Well it's been an annoying past few months. I am so sick and tired of work right now. QA is being treated like shit and
I am tired of dealing with it. We have been moved in with support as our new dept and out of dev, but we still sit in the Dev room. The dev guys kinda act a little different now and our old boss totally acts different. I hate this, its like we aren't even important to the company.

In other news. The adoption thing is really starting to piss me OFF. They were suppose to have our paperwork in like 4 weeks ago but we found it they still have not sent it in nor have they given us a reason why. I think some of the references have not sent their paperwork in. But hey, so what, it's not like family and friends are going to say anything bad about you, I wouldn't think. This is stressful and I am tired of it. I want to at least be on the books at the agency. I thought by end of August we would be but it' s looking more like end of September or October.

Other than that, nothings fine. Everything else sucks too, but that is ok. I can still be a happy camper.

The Facts Stir Around

Lately I have been getting agitated by the alarming trends in gay/lesbian opposition to things like marriage and adoption. I have tried to logically figure out how an argument could come out of that. The Divorce rate right now is at 50%, that is an unprecedented number and believable to most who hear it. I cannot believe friends, family members, acquaintances and even strangers talking about their divorce. Usually only after a few years of marriage even. Then the ones that stayed in marriages for 1. the kids, 2. what could they do 3. it was expected 4. I'd be alone 5. I'll never find anyone else so why leave 6. society will look down on me (not so much these days) 7. I'm sure we can make it work 8. I'm not going to let them win by giving them (the other half) a divorce 9. I was never in love, just wanted marriage 10. Gay/Lesbian.

WTF. Those are actually things i've been told before. How can Gays ruin marriage for anyone when people seem to ruin it for themselves. If So many did not worry what the other person was doing they'd probably have a better chance
or wrangling some happiness for themselves. how do you do that, the blame game I mean. Even being gay I could never say I am unhappy because all those breeders (just teasing) are mean to me. I can always stand up for myself and get through any hardship that comes my way. I can't blame anyone else for my predicaments besides myself. My choices. If I don't like straights being married then I guess I won't marry someone of the opposite sex, would I. And that would be that.

Come On People. Give a humanity a chance. Take all the energy used for hatred and bigotry and use it for something worth while. like fighting these high gas prices, corruption in government, unemployment, sending American jobs overseas, stupidity, education... There is a list of things we could all expend more energy on, even those that aren't bigoted or racist or prejudiced.

And no, I won't be preaching love love love, holding hands and hugging. I can do without that crap.

HA, take care.

The "NOT" Heart Attack

I will have to go into further detail someday on this story but it was a hoot. was having some chest pain
went to the Doctor to make sure it was nothing. I kept saying, "it's just stress I am sure it is just stress". With the
adoption going on and tons of things at work and just basic every day survival I just knew gut instinct that it was stress.

Well after getting hauled to the emergency room and made to stay in ER recovery for at least 24 hours I sill do not know
if I was right or not. Nothing, zip, nadda. No information was passed on what so ever and at this POINT. I just do not care. I was so stressed because they kept saying it might be a mild heartattack that I would cause my blood pressure to
sky rocket. Now that I have just stopped caring... It is back to normal, I am back to the gym and I do have occasional burst of pain in the chest but they kept saying "wow, you are one of the healhtiest people we've seen in ages.

So I'll continue my life. I was only drinking on Friday and Saturday night (but like 3 or 4 strong drinks) and maybe wine on Sunday's with dinner. I have given that up. Gone back to doing more cardio. I had stopped for a while because it tired me out and caused my back to hurt but I just do not care anymore. I am certainly not going to let a heart problem take me down.

No Heartattacks here BABY

Can you believe I was hospitalized last Tuesday because my Dr. thought I was having a mild heart attack? Really sucks, had to stay in the hospital for 24 hours for observation and they still never found anything out. When I left they said I was one of the healthiest people they seen in ages. but, B U T could not explain my chest pains. Which was causing my blood pressure to sky rocket and my pulse to just go out of control every so many minutes. I would go from 70 beats to 90 in seconds just lying in bed doing nothing. they alarm would go off they'd come running in the room. After a few times of that they stopped running in. well until that one time I dropped dramatically.

I have to admit I was so worried and scared. Since I have been back home I just do not feel the same. My pulse at resting is around 75 - 88 which it used to be like 67 - 75. I have this constant burning in my chest and I tire out very quickly. After being awake for a couple of hours I am ready for a nap. This is NOT going to work out well with work I am sure.

Oh well. I'm just going to keep working out and trying to stay healthy and in shape. hopefully that will help in the long run.

how did I forget to post this.

This Takes Too Long

I cannot believe how long this darn adoption process takes. We aren't even at a part where a birth mother can choose us. We still need to do the homestudy and our birth mother letter has not been approved yet. Plus we need to finish our website....
work work work
it seems never ending and I just want a BABY now. I wonder how people that have been waiting for years get through it. I cannot even handle this wait. And it not really a wait we just need to finish our business and then we can be on the books and hopefully matched fast.

Oh Well.

Crap I am Lazy

Well for the past 4 months have been working on and prepping up the reality and the beginning of us... Adopting. We we have started everything up, we still have quite a ways to go, we are only in the very infancy phase of this thing so may not see a child before 09, but not necessarily, if we get everything done by mid summer we could match up before end of year.

I will post more on this. I actually find it extremely exciting, although tiring. There is so much involved in this.

take care all

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